hay.. hmm.. wat to talk about? were ok again.. (whoopdidy!) but.. even though were ok, things really aren't.. you see i don't have anyone.. xcept him of course.. i feel na parang na abandon na aku ng mga tau... khit ung taung pnkaineexpect ko na andyan lang, andyan nga pero iba nman ung snasabi sa likod mo.. hindi man aku ung jnjudge nila, xa man ung jnjudge nila.. parang aku na rin eh... i may stay quiet kpag may snasabi sila about him but it hurts.. hayy... lalu na ung "little brother" mo.. i don't know kung may mtrust pa ko.. kahit ung ngbbasa nito snsabi parin eh.. so who can i really trust? lam mo ung feeling na kpag sila lang ung naguusap and they don't wana get you into the details.. as if they're trying to hide something your not supposed to know.. i don't know what they want to get out of this.. what's up? why can't things go back to normal? i act as normal nman eh why won't the good times come back? it's like i'm asking na for something impossible.. will it ever return? i don't know.. i try to not talk about him when i'm in school.. i try to avoid any topic about him.. but why does it seem na hayy.. i don't know... it's really hard to trust somebody.. and it's even harder kapag nabreak ung trust na un.. hayyyyy... i just remembered this thing.. hay so sad... you know the feeling na everyone's trying to tell you one thing but you try and deny it coz you know na it isn't true.. because that someone told you it's not true... but in reality it really is? (i'm not making sense..) anyways bye now.. i'm gonna go talk to him now.. bye

after (let's say... 10 years!) a long time.. here i am again.. to start off... life bites big time! i don't care what other people think! (i dont know where that came from!) hayy.. i wish my life would just go back to normal.. when everything seemed so uncomplicated and simple.. but then again.. here i am and i'd just have to live with whatever problems i have.

Soo.. what do you want me to talk about? life? My life's really crazy right now. I'm in this relationship but, almost everyone close to me don't approve of him. (correct grammar ba yan?) You see.. i'm just a  junior high student and the guy is well.. third year ... college. I know this may seem to be a pretty large gap but actually i'm sixteen and he's eighteen. so two years... i don't know.. you see my friends say that they're dissappointed in me for choosing someone i hardly know...they say i could have chosen someone else.. someone who could be beside me always.. someone more handsome.. someone who could give me more... but i chose him. you know, i really want to cry because even my best friend doesn't approve and almost everyday she'd ask if "kalan kaya kau magbbreak?", "nakakainis talaga yan!" or "isang-isa pa humanda na talaga yan!" but when i tell her to stop, she'd say that she'll support me in whatever decision i choose. (you know i'm talking to him right now in yahoo.. just fyi) sometimes i get influenced by what my friends say and now.. i really don't know what to do at the moment... my  friends are really important to me and i don't know what to do...

 help!

mann... it's so boring today! the weather's making it worse... it's raining the whole day! and you know what i did the whole afternoon? sleep~! nothng to do... wait... i forgot about my project.. the wall clock thing.. uughh.. it's okay i guess... nothing to do.. i can't wait to go to school tomorrow! i love going to school! i love learning new things... i love being around people... i love being able to talk to my friends... hayyy.... i wanna go to school na!